By the way, I’m honestly worried about the whole topic of relationships with women. And with people in general. Do you ever get nervous before a normal hangout with a friend, a new person, someone you know and so on? I’m always stressed that there will be silence, that I won’t find anything to talk about and all that. Sometimes it’s easier for me to just cancel the meeting and come up with some stupid excuse.
I don’t know how old you are, but I’d say this gets easier with age. Not in the sense that older people are smarter or anything like that, it’s just experience. You start understanding that even a pause, silence won’t change anything in any major way if you matched with each other, and you can definitely stop worrying about it. And besides, as I got older I started to realize that with someone I feel comfortable with, even silence feels comfortable. If it makes things tense instead, I immediately assume nothing will work out between us.